Saturday, January 31, 2009

My first cake

I'm too lazy to write words.. so just pics.. (I'll probably write words some time later) ^^||

Friday, January 30, 2009

关于妓女的对话(zz)

杰 希卡(化名)是一个23岁的美国外教,她的中文发音比我好,至少她能读对我永远都分不清的平翘舌,她住在北京使馆区附近的一个涉外公寓里。因为住在这里的 年轻女孩大都是世界各国来的妓女,所以她进出的时候,门卫时不时的会问一些诸如此类的问题:干你们这行儿收入还行吗?你有没有遇到过变态的客 人?你家里知道你干这个吗?
以下是我和她在教师课间休息室里的对话。
“他们老以为我是妓女,我觉得很讨厌。”
“为什么会讨厌,因为被当成妓女?”
“对。”
“如果他们误以为你是工程师,你也会讨厌吗?”
“嗯……应该不会吧。”
“你瞧不起妓女吗?”
“不会啊。”
“那你觉得妓女不好是吗?”
“好像不太好吧?我还真没仔细想过。”
“那你现在想想”。
“嗯……我觉得做这个的人很恶心,我很难想象跟一个连一点好感都没有的陌生男人上床就为了那点钱。”
“那要是给得多呢?”
“多也不可以,我觉得很恶心。”
“比如给你一个亿,就睡一次,还带套,你诚实地想一想。”
“哈,这个问题还真挺要命,嗯……我得认真想一下。”
“别想了,给你十个亿,还是你们老家的美元。”
“哈哈,那我可能会愿意。”
“所以她们和你可能没有本质的区别,她们可能只是比你要求低,比较舍得自己,她们都挺不容易的。”
“是啊,你这么说我也觉得,她们是不容易。”
“那你还觉得妓女不好吗?”
“嗯……不了。”
“还是有点别扭是吗?”
“对呀,你怎么知道。”
“看你那小样儿,你们总是把想什么都写在脸上。”
“呵呵,这样不好吗?你喜欢喜怒不形于色,你们欣赏这个对吗?”
“别人不知道,我自己不喜欢城府深的人,我觉得通常这种人如果不是装孙子就是孙子。”
“什么是城府深?”
“就是有心机,想什么看不出来,跟你那个什么于色差不多,装孙子和孙子你知道什么意思吧?”
“这个当然知道,哈哈。”
“说说吧,为什么还有点别扭。”
“嗯……我现在觉得那些妓女们没什么不好,是那些男人不好。”
“哪些男人?嫖客?”
“嫖客?对,对,对,叫嫖客。”
“他们怎么不好了?”
“他们如果想要,应该去找女朋友,而不是去买。”
“买怎么了?”
“我觉得不好,买肉体我觉得不对。”
“为什么呢?”
“嗯……我现在想得不是很清楚,总之我觉得这样不好。”
“好吧,那你想想这个,要是一个男人很丑凑巧又很笨,四十岁也没找到女朋友,女人都不喜欢她,那他是不是这辈子就该活活憋死?”
“这个嘛……我真没想过,唉。”
“他在你们国家还能看看杂志,在这里,一般见不到杂志,马路上买黄碟有可能被当场抓住,好不容易安全到家正学习的时候还有可能被警察破门而入。”
“哈哈,我也听说过。”
“是啊,幸亏后来有了网络,他才看到点真的,但也只能是看。这个星期天,就是他四十岁生日了,他决定对自己好一点儿……”
“哈哈哈。”
“别笑,听着……对了,你听说过四十不惑吗?”
“我知道,就是那个什么三十而立什么的吧?”
“是啊,立了十年,还是那么惑,他决定四十岁这一天彻底不惑,弄个清清楚楚,他容易吗?在这个命运对他如此残酷的世界上,谁忍心说他不能或不该这样做呢?谁有权力说他堕落,说他无耻呢?”
“是啊,真是的。”
“那你还觉得嫖客不对吗?”
“嗯……至少没我想得那么简单了。”
★★★
“哈哈哈哈,老罗,你逗死我了。”
“我操,谁呀?吓我一跳。”
★★★
刘玉玲(化名)是一个26岁的中国女教师,英文发音比我好,至少她读的英文过了四级考试的中国人能听懂,她一直很"敬爱"我。我和杰希卡聊天的时候她在薄木板隔开的另一间教师休息室里躺着休息,笑出声后走到我们这间来了。杰希卡因为刚好休息时间结束就先走了。
以下是我和刘玉玲在教师课间休息室里的对话。
“想睡会儿觉,结果光听你欺负杰希卡了。”
“怎么是欺负,聊天嘛。”
“你得了吧你。”
“怎么了,我其实挺严肃的。”
“哼!懒得理你。”
“真是挺认真的,正好我也想问问你。”
“问什么呀?”
“你觉得当妓女有什么不对吗?”
“当然了,这还用问吗?”
“为什么呀?”
“当妓女最不要脸了,一个人干什么不能养活自己呀,干嘛要去干那种事儿。”
“你知不知道很多农村来的小姑娘在饭馆端盘子一个月拿两三百块钱?”
“不会吧。”
“是真的,就这样她们还能省下来给家里寄点钱。”
“怎么可能省得下来啊。”
“饭馆一般管吃住,工资完全不花就省下来一点了,她们老家一家三口种一年地才赚两千块钱,她一个人一年赚三千块就觉得还可以了。”
“那不是挺好吗?”
“可是在城里,听说有的老家出来的姐妹在桑拿浴给客人捏捏身子一个月就能拿这个数就犯嘀咕了,她们也知道那种地方可能不好,可是这个诱惑挺可怕的。你想你在这儿教书一年也有个十五万吧,要是你突然听说有个工作给你年薪一百五十万你也得犯嘀咕吧?”
“呸,我才不会去干那个呢。”
“怎么了?只是做按摩,又不是卖身。”
“你说会不卖身吗?”
“开始不都是吗?有几个人会直接决定卖身呢?多半是先想着卖手不卖身,只做健康按摩。”
“嗯,有道理。”
“干了一段时间后,听说有的姐妹做那种事一个月可以挣一万多不免又开始犯嘀咕了。”
“等等,你不是特坚持原则的一个人吗?你不是说要剽悍吗?怎么这么没原则呀。”
“我不会强求别人也像我这么猛,那还不累死他们。我只是希望年轻人能多坚持一点,就少放弃一点,对那些可怜的贫困农村来的孩子,我不会对他们在原则上要求太高。你们只看到我凶悍刻薄的表象,从来不知道骨子里我有一颗多宽容的心灵。”
“呵呵,又来了又来了。”
“那好吧,我也问问你刚才问杰希卡的问题,给你一个亿,就一次,你干吗?”
“去!我才不回答你这种无聊的问题呢。”
“我不是开玩笑,我就是想知道如果碰到这种问题你会怎么想。”
“我才不想呢。”
“我觉得这是件挺严肃的事儿,挺值得认真想一下的。”
“你就无聊吧你。”
“那你还是觉得做妓女是不要脸的事情对吗?”
“当然了。”
“为什么呢?”
“有什么为什么呀?你出去打听打听,谁会觉得当妓女好呀?”
“那你是因为他们都觉得不好所以也觉得不好是吗?”
“对呀。”
“你觉得‘因为大家都怎么样,所以我也怎么样’是一个合理的因果关系是吗?”
“行了,老罗,我不跟你玩儿逻辑,你自己想想,要是你生个女儿长大了要去当妓女你能同意吗?”
“要是她成年了,我不同意也没用。”
“我的意思是如果你能管住她,你会同意吗?”
“嗯…..我还真没想过……”
“你看,你也不会同意的。”
“ 我觉得是这样,我不希望她从事这个行业是因为这是一个非常危险的行业,我不希望她出事,就像我不希望她去当战地记者一样,我会非常担心她的安全,并不是因 为这个行业有什么不对。如果她成年了,想清楚了,知道自己在干什么我是不会管她的,只会替她担心,或是劝她别干。如果她真的去干了,我也不会像那些傻逼父 母一样因此跟孩子断绝关系,我可能会絮絮叨叨地劝她转行惹得她嫌我烦吧。”
“我才不信呢。”
“不信就算了,对了,我刚才说嫖客你也听见了,你对我说的那种情况的嫖客怎么想。”
“我觉得一样不要脸。”
“你觉得那个四十岁的男人活该憋死是吗?”
“对呀,没本事找老婆就忍着呗,有什么可怜的呀,当和尚的不也活得好好的吗?”
“人家那是有信仰支撑着,不一样。”
“那就信一个呗,唉,你无聊不无聊啊,哎,你看我昨天买这耳环好不好看?”
“......”
“你看看嘛。”
“好看,真好看,挺漂亮的,配你特合适。”
“嘻嘻。”



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当这个世界开始容忍异类的时候,也许我们才会发现,我们自己每一个人,其实都是一个异类。之所以感觉不到,也许是因为我们太习惯活在别人的评价中。

我 们习惯于被人羡慕,在别人的赞许中骄傲着,活在别人的期望中,然而也许终有一天,我们会发现,自己所追求的,只不过是别人认为我们应该追求的,碌碌一生, 除去表演,别无所成。而自己真正喜欢什么,需要什么,也许再也无从记起。当时光渐渐逝去的时候,也许我们会发现,邻家那个天天喜欢玩泥巴的小孩活得比我们 潇洒得多。努力只为去换取一句“牛逼”,远远不比自己用心做一件喜欢的事,哪怕只是和泥巴,来得更值得。

上天尊重努力的人,更尊重真正相信自己的人。

My last black Friday

Finally, comes.. -____-
All right, I'll go to bed now and get up tomorrow (7am?) to get crazy for my last black Friday.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

The most ridiculous charge

My high school classmate just send me a link of my high school on wiki, saying there is something interesting. I looked at it, and I found something I never know: the most ridiculous charge of a teacher during culture revolution.

The charge was "Against dear XXX". -- The teacher told the students to leave the classroom as quickly as possible when earthquakes come. One of the students asked: "How about the portrait of XXX? Do we need to bring it with us before we leave?" and the teacher didn't reply, neither said yes nor said no.

The teacher was tortured to death and the reason of her death is "unknown" on the death certificate.

And something even more disgusting happened not long before(2007), one of the students related to her death was selected as one of the 90 honorable alumni during the celebration of the school's 90 anniversary.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Bullog.cn(牛博网) was shut down on 1.9

I was wondering why I cannot connect to it after I get back from my wonderful trip. It turns out that it's because bullog is not a good boy, too rebellious and like talking bad things of XX nanny, so XX nanny put him into a small black room and imply the rest of the world this is because bullog speak dirty.

click here(Chinese) for the reaction from LaoLuo(老罗).

click here(English) for a brief report from TIME.

I googled LaoLuo(老罗) and didn't find the English wiki for him(guess he is still not famous enough =P), just Chinese version. I have taken his class in New Oriental English School when preparing for GRE. He is a good teacher and he has deep thoughts(from the Chinese wiki):

* 对中国制式教育的批评——他认为目前中国的制式教育对青少年害大于利;
criticize on the Chinese education -- he thinks its disadvantage is more than advantage to Chinese young generation.
* 对暂住制度的批评——他认为在一个国家领土范围内,自由迁徙是公民的基本权利;一个人在自己祖国的土地上被要求“暂”住是荒谬的;
* 对“独立思考”的呼吁和对理想主义人生观的推崇——他认为中国的年轻人不应该放弃独立思考,不应该“为了乡愿或利益而放弃基本是非原则”或“放弃自己经过独立思考认为正确的事情”,不应该放弃对于“自由、民主、公正、法制、宽容”的社会信念和追求。他强调“愤世嫉俗”与犬儒主义的区别,认为一个坚持理想的人应该抱有不可动摇的乐观态度和人生勇气;
claim for "thinking independently". -- he thinks Chinese young people should not give up thinking independently, should not give up the basic principles or the right things after independent thinking for benefits, should not give up the pursuing of "freedom, democracy, fairness, legal system and forgiveness". He thinks a person with dream should have optimism and courage.
* 对民族主义和盲目民族神圣化的不认同 —— 他称自己“骨子里是一个国际主义者”,认为一个人是否爱国纯属个人情感选择,民族情感必须以公正、理性、人道为前提,每个人必须尊重别人的情感选择。
criticize on blind patriotism -- he claim himself is a internationalist. He thinks that whether a person love his/her country is a personal choice. Patriotism should be always after fairness, ration and humanity. Everyone should respect other's emotion choice.
* 对伪科学的激烈反对 —— 他认为中国传统医学的经验体系从没有自成科学体系,因此自称“科学”的所谓“中医”是伪科学;主张废除中医。
* 对中国媒体大面积职业道德沦丧的谴责和讽刺;
criticize on the wrong doing of Chinese media, saying they don't have professional responsibility.
* 对文坛中一些故弄玄虚、空洞浮华文风的讽刺;
* 对中国文艺界一些形式主义、僵化空洞的作风的嘲讽——他对中国中央电视台一些节目进行过幽默的嘲讽。
criticize on the current Chinese literatures and arts field, saying they are formalism, stubborn and meaningless.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Salmon Teriyaki

Haha, see my salmon teriyaki. Doesn't it look good? XD

Actually, it's a little over cooked.. and the skin is ruined by me. But anyway, it taste not that bad, although much worse than the one I had at Princeton. -_________-

Friday, January 9, 2009

MIT & Hahvid

(Because I am at Bawstin, so I'll try to act like a local.)

We went to MIT & Hahvid today.

The fahst building we ran into is MIT's statar centah, and latah we know it is used by Computah Science Depahtment囧. The building looks funny. I heahd someone like it and someone don't. I cannot appreciate it eithah-____-. But I do like the MIT's police cah inside of this building. See, they even got two dices hanging ovah theah. The pic with me inside is MIT's main builing.

Then we went to Hahvid. Anyway, I didn't figah out wheah I can pahk in Hahvid Yahd. But I had a chance to look at Hahvid's fancy dinning hall. As Peng said, this is definitly the Harry Potah style... In the end, I took a stupid pictah in one of Hahvid's buildings and I fahgot which one it is. 囧

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Boston

Boston is the best city of my east coast trip~~

It is clean&tidy. People are so nice(We were just looking at the map, and they offered help voluntarily). Public transportation is convenient. And you don't need to worry about get robbed while walking along streets at night. =) The pic is where my friend lives, Parker Hill.

We've tried 3 Boston's food, seafood pasta(lobster), pastry and clam chowder soup. The seafood pasta is tasty, I never liked pasta very much, since I thought it's just another kind of noodles -____-. But this one is good, and probably the reason is that there are more lobster, fish and oyster in it than noodles... So at the end, the things I liked are still not pasta... I liked the fish best, I didn't find lobster taste much better than shrimp and oyster is okay. The pastry is bad.. we went to a one called "Mike's pastry". It is highly reviewed on google map. I don't like the cream at all, since they are really thick.. Clam chowder soup is okay(I don't like creamy soup-.-), but putting it in a bread bowl is funny, and that's why I bought it.

There are some other funny things about Boston. The most funny thing is their accent. I'm not laughing at their accent, It's just interesting to listen and mimic their accent for me =P. See the pic, it's a mouse pad, and Boston ppl are making fun of themselves, "The top 10 ways to act like you tahk Bawstin". At last, show a pic of me & Mr. Lobstah!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Princeton & New York

It has been one year and a half since the last time I saw Peng in our graduation at Tsinghua. I finally got a chance to visit the niubiest in my class at Princeton.

I arrived at Princeton University in a sunny afternoon. Peng didn't change much, still acts in a niubie way. Peng took us to a Japanese restaurant(owned by Chinese-_-) and I liked the salmon teriyaki so much... The california roll is tasty as well. I was eating california roll at Princeton. -.-

Then Peng lead us to visit the campus. Princeton is the most beautiful campus I've seen so far. I even like the small blue lights.. I like the color of their buildings(not all in red X<), the architectures(a lot of funny design, see the pic where Peng&I was in), the big lawns and big trees. After a wonderful trip in Princeton, we then headed to New York. The feeling of New York to me is overwhelming. You seemed got everything here but in the same time you feel lost. There are too many places to go, too many restaurants to try, too many museums to visit, too many shops to buy, and too much stuff to do. You feel lost wondering inside the building forrest of financial district, waiting in the subway, and walking along the world busiest streets.

Probably the only quiet place for New Yorker to slow down a little bit is Central Park. It was nice roaming inside the park in the Sunday morning and watching people jogging near you.

We then went to South Ferry where you can see Statue of Liberty. Well, you can see a very small woman in my photo during sunset, and that's her. =P

My travel book suggested a bagel shop called H&H. And the translation is "百吉饼". I don't know how they translated this word.. I can hardly relate these two words together -____-. Anyway, we went there and bought 3 "百吉饼".. The taste is okay, but I cannot tell the difference between this and the one I bought at Ralph's..

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Philadelphia

Philadelphia is not that kind of city I like.. But the Museum of Art and University of Pennsylvania is not bad.

We went to the famous Philadelphia cheese steak first(the first thing of going to a new city for me is always eating=.=). The one we went to is called Pat's. Pat is the one who invent this steak sandwich. It was so cold that day(I was finally beaten by the harsh weather on east coast-_-), and the line is long, the eating place is outdoor.. Anyway, I didn't enjoy it very much both because the eating environment is harsh and the cheese steak sandwich is not that tasty.

We then headed to the Museum of Art. I have to say, this one is the best I've seen so far. They got all kinds of stuff, European art, American art, Asian art, Indian art, Mexican art, and balabala. And the museum is built in a way not tedious. The architecture of the museum is a part of the exhibition as well.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Great Falls Park & Baltimore

On the fourth day of my trip, I went to Great Falls Park & Baltimore.

Great Falls Park is beautiful, although it's not a national park(comparing with Shenandoah -.-). The fall is not that great as its name.. However, this does not affect my favor of it^^. There are dead trees under the water everywhere which reminds me of JiuZhaiGou(my favourite nature view in China).

We then went to Baltimore in the afternoon. We headed to Baltimore's famous Crab Cake immediately.. The one we went is called Faidley's located in Lexington Market. The Crab Cake is so tasty... hmm... I miss it already.. lol

Baltimore is interesting city since it has a harbor in its downtown. The view is beautiful there~