Friday, May 29, 2009

May 35th is coming

So the whole blogspot is banned.
Youtube&Wikipedia are probably already banned.
Now Baidu forum is not commentable.

Someone on Blogger.com commented on these actions saying:
"These stupid actions will only increase the curiosity of online students and make them want to know more about the truth hidden by some party."

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Forth day in Florham Park

I woke up today and I found something I almost lost.
The feeling of rain, fog, air and trees together.

It is a little bit foggy this morning,
probably because of the small shower last night.
Everything is so fresh and clean,
air is full of moisturizer,
and you can even feel the trees are breathing.
Rain, fog, air and trees,
suddenly they remind me of where I lived when I was kid,
a small mountain in the southwestern part of China.

Then I realized that I forgot a lot of things after I came to LA.
I even forgot the feeling of rain, fog, air and trees..
I like it so much but I forgot about it!

I even don't know if I should be happy about it or not.
You forget things, so you don't need to be sad about the things you lost or you cannot get.
You forget things, then the beautiful/good things are just gone, like they never exist.

Monday, May 25, 2009

It feels sooooooo good to have some place to stay

I finally get into my new apt at Florham Park, NJ.
Thanks everyone helping me out~~ ToT

Btw, it's so ying ming shen wu of me to bring a wire here, their wireless network is really slow, but wired network is quite fast, and with no security control... lol

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

City Data Website

This is a nice website providing city data.
http://www.city-data.com/

Friday, May 15, 2009

My personality test

From facebook, I answered nearly 200 questions, some results do make sense though.

第 8 型 領袖型 (The Challenger) - 21%
第 3 型 成就者 (The Achiever) - 19%
第 7 型 快樂主義型 (The Enthusiast) - 18%
第 9 型 和平型 (The Peacemaker) - 10%
第 6 型 忠誠型 (The Loyalist) - 9%
第 5 型 智慧型 (The Investigator) - 7%
第 1 型 完美主義者 (The Reformer) - 7%
第 4 型 藝術型 (The Individualist) - 4%
第 2 型 助人者 (The Helper) - 3%

第八型 ~ 領袖型 (The Challenger)
人格簡介:
領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型
詳細說明:
你擁有很多當領袖的特質:豪爽、不拘小節、自視甚高、遇強越強、關心、正義、公平。你清楚自己的目標,並努力前進。由於不願被人控制,且具有一定的支配力,所以你很有潛質做領袖帶領大家。由於你好勝性格,有時侯會對人有點攻擊性,讓人感到壓力。
Except for leading others (I don't like leading others or being lead by others), all make some sense, especially not like being controlled by others.
主要特徵:
控制個人的佔有物和空間,控制那些可能影響自己生活的人。 具有進攻性,公開表達自己的憤怒。 關注正義,喜歡保護他人。把打架和性愛當作與他人接觸的方式。相信那些在正面衝突中不退縮的人。 把過度看作克服厭倦的良藥。夜生活、瘋狂娛樂、徹夜狂歡、暴飲暴食…… 難以意識到自我的依賴性。當別人愛上他們時,他們會通過各種方式拒絕真實情感,比如離開、認為無聊或者暗自譴責自己對他人的誤導。常常把所有事物極端化。 缺乏對自身弱點的認識。
Regarding excessiveness as a way to get away from boringness... Really? am I?

第三型 ~ 成就者 (The Achiever)
人格簡介:
成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型
詳細說明:
你精力充沛,總是動力過人,因為你有很強的爭勝慾望。你喜歡接受挑戰,會把你自己的價值與成就連成一線。成就型的你會全心全意去追求一個目標,因為你相信「天下沒有不可能的事」。動力十足的你,適合做領袖帶領其他人。
I am super energetic, but is that because I want to win? win what?
win the feeling of smallness compared to this huge&unknown world?
主要特徵:
看重自己的表現和成就。 講究效率。 喜歡競爭,避免失敗。相信愛情來自你能提供甚麼,而不在於你是誰。只關注事物積極的方面,不理會消極負面的信息。重視效率、比賽、贏。難以瞭解個人的感覺。在工作的時候把感情放到了一邊。 為爭取認可而打造有利形象。公眾形象屬於社會高層人物。在真正自我和工作角色之間會產生困惑。 通過集合思維的方式集中注意力,通過多渠道來尋找問題的答案。能夠下意識地調整自我形象,以為調整地形象就是個人的真我。

第七型 ~ 快樂主義型 (The Enthusiast)
人格簡介:
快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型
詳細說明:
活躍型的你,有著以下特點:樂觀、精力充沛、迷人、好動、貪新鮮、五時花六時變……「最緊要玩得開心」是你的生活哲學。你渴求有新鮮感的生活,所以很不喜歡被束縛、被控制。你的活力是玩的活力,又跟第三型的成就型又有所不同,是最佳的活動攪手。
Probably I am optimistic, cause being pessimistic cannot change anything.
Super energetic, yeah, I know..
Charming? haha, am I?
Like new things, oh yeah, definitely, I want to know and try everything, I don't like repeatness.
主要特徵:
需要保持高度的興奮。同時參與多項活動,對很多事情都感興趣。 喜歡保持感情的高峰狀態。保持多種選擇,並把這當作一種避免對單一任務進行承諾的工具。 用快樂的精神活動,比如談話、計劃和思考,取代深層的接觸。喜歡把信息相互關聯,進行系統分析。 能夠從不相關或者看似矛盾的觀點中找到不尋常的聯繫和相似點。
Keep multiple options, and regard this as a way to avoid commitment to a single task. This do make sense.. I like options! lol

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

HBO: CHINA'S UNNATURAL DISASTER: THE TEARS OF SICHUAN PROVINCE

http://www.hbo.com/docs/programs/chinasdisaster/index.html

Rated TV14: ADULT CONTENT, ADULT LANGUAGE
Running Time: 38 minutes
Genre: Documentary

On Monday, May 12, 2008, a catastrophic earthquake leveled the Sichuan Province in rural China. Nearly 70,000 people died, 10,000 of whom were children. Now, their grieving parents want justice from their government. This documentary visits with these parents in the days after the disaster as they unite in a festering anger, attempting to understand why children were allowed in such poorly constructed buildings, how government resources might have been misdirected by local officials--and why many of those same officials failed to respond to parents' concerns in the hours and days after the tragedy. (TV14)

Director(s): MATT O'NEILL, JON ALPERT

Schedule

Sat 5/16 01:15 PM HBO - WEST
Mon 5/18 08:45 PM HBO - WEST
Thu 5/21 04:00 PM HBO - WEST

Monday, May 11, 2009

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I decide

to drop Microeconomics,
and take Ethics next term.

I want to do good things,
but what's more important:
I need to know why they are good.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Why I Am Not A Christian -- Bertrand Russell

English Version
Chinese Translation

Every field probably starts with some basic rules, but rules can change

If you believe these rules are unchangeable, i.e., these rules are always RIGHT. Then what's the difference between these rules and religion?

Newton's law was the basic rule in Physics, but later proved to be limited by Einstein. It was working perfectly fine until human finally get out of earth and break into the space.
Who knows whether Einstein's theory is RIGHT or WRONG. Probably someday it will be proved limited as well.

What's really RIGHT and what's really WRONG. I really don't know.

"Newton's law has since been superseded by Einstein's theory of general relativity, but it continues to be used as an excellent approximation of the effects of gravity. Relativity is only required when there is a need for extreme precision, or when dealing with gravitation for very massive objects." -- wikipedia

反熵过程 (entropy decreasing process)

人类的存在,文明的发展就是个反熵过程。 —— 王小波
The existence of Human, the development of civilization is a entropy decreasing process. -- Xiaobo Wang

王小波的解释,大部分人都在试图增熵(我的理解就是最大化个人利益,特别是物质利益)。而他的写作,是一个反熵过程,为了写作而写作,一不为挣钱,二不为挣名。
水往低处流,苹果掉下地,狼吃兔子都是增熵过程。而光有增熵过程是不行的,否则所有人都顺着一个自然的方向往下溜,最后在个低洼的地方汇齐,挤在一起像粪坑里的蛆。

Monday, May 4, 2009

My front-crawl swimming

Haha, I can breathe once every 8th arm recovery, i.e., every 4 cycles now~~
But I still cannot breathe on the left side.. >_<
More practice!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

一只特立独行的猪 -- 王小波

  插队的时候,我喂过猪、也放过牛。假如没有人来管,这两种动物也完全知道该怎样生活。它们会自由自在地闲逛,饥则食渴则饮,春天来临时还要谈谈爱情;这样一来,它们的生活层次很低,完全乏善可陈。人来了以后,给它们的生活做出了安排:每一头牛和每一口猪的生活都有了主题。就它们中的大多数而言,这种生活主题是很悲惨的:前者的主题是干活,后者的主题是长肉。我不认为这有什么可抱怨的,因为我当时的生活也不见得丰富了多少,除了八个样板戏,也没有什么消遣。有极少数的猪和牛,它们的生活另有安排。以猪为例,种猪和母猪除了吃,还有别的事可干。就我所见,它们对这些安排也不大喜欢。种猪的任务是交配,换言之,我们的政策准许它当个花花公子。但是疲惫的种猪往往摆出一种肉猪(肉猪是阉过的)才有的正人君子架势,死活不肯跳到母猪背上去。母猪的任务是生崽儿,但有些母猪却要把猪崽儿吃掉。总的来说,人的安排使猪痛苦不堪。但它们还是接受了:猪总是猪啊。

  对生活做种种设置是人特有的品性。不光是设置动物,也设置自己。我们知道,在古希腊有个斯巴达,那里的生活被设置得了无生趣,其目的就是要使男人成为亡命战士,使女人成为生育机器,前者像些斗鸡,后者像些母猪。这两类动物是很特别的,但我以为,它们肯定不喜欢自己的生活。但不喜欢又能怎么样?人也好,动物也罢,都很难改变自己的命运。

  以下谈到的一只猪有些与众不同。我喂猪时,它已经有四五岁了,从名分上说,它是肉猪,但长得又黑又瘦,两眼炯炯有光。这家伙像山羊一样敏捷,一米高的猪栏一跳就过;它还能跳上猪圈的房顶,这一点又像是猫——所以它总是到处游逛,根本就不在圈里呆着。所有喂过猪的知青都把它当宠儿来对待,它也是我的宠儿——因为它只对知青好,容许他们走到三米之内,要是别的人,它早就跑了。它是公的,原本该劁掉。不过你去试试看,哪怕你把劁猪刀藏在身后,它也能嗅出来,朝你瞪大眼睛,噢噢地吼起来。我总是用细米糠熬的粥喂它,等它吃够了以后,才把糠对到野草里喂别的猪。其他猪看了嫉妒,一起嚷起来。这时候整个猪场一片鬼哭狼嚎,但我和它都不在乎。吃饱了以后,它就跳上房顶去晒太阳,或者模仿各种声音。它会学汽车响、拖拉机响,学得都很像;有时整天不见踪影,我估计它到附近的村寨里找母猪去了。我们这里也有母猪,都关在圈里,被过度的生育搞得走了形,又脏又臭,它对它们不感兴趣;村寨里的母猪好看一些。它有很多精彩的事迹,但我喂猪的时间短,知道得有限,索性就不写了。总而言之,所有喂过猪的知青都喜欢它,喜欢它特立独行的派头儿,还说它活得潇洒。但老乡们就不这么浪漫,他们说,这猪不正经。领导则痛恨它,这一点以后还要谈到。我对它则不止是喜欢——我尊敬它,常常不顾自己虚长十几岁这一现实,把它叫做“猪兄”。如前所述,这位猪兄会模仿各种声音。我想它也学过人说话,但没有学会——假如学会了,我们就可以做倾心之谈。但这不能怪它。人和猪的音色差得太远了。

  后来,猪兄学会了汽笛叫,这个本领给它招来了麻烦。我们那里有座糖厂,中午要鸣一次汽笛,让工人换班。我们队下地干活时,听见这次汽笛响就收工回来。我的猪兄每天上午十点钟总要跳到房上学汽笛,地里的人听见它叫就回来——这可比糖厂鸣笛早了一个半小时。坦白地说,这不能全怪猪兄,它毕竟不是锅炉,叫起来和汽笛还有些区别,但老乡们却硬说听不出来。领导上因此开了一个会,把它定成了破坏春耕的坏分子,要对它采取专政手段——会议的精神我已经知道了,但我不为它担忧——因为假如专政是指绳索和杀猪刀的话,那是一点门都没有的。以前的领导也不是没试过,一百人也这不住它。狗也没用:猪兄跑起来像颗鱼雷,能把狗撞出一丈开外。谁知这回是动了真格的,指导员带了二十几个人,手拿五四式手枪;副指导员带了十几人,手持看青的火枪,分两路在猪场外的空地上兜捕它。这就使我陷入了内心的矛盾:按我和它的交情,我该舞起两把杀猪刀冲出去,和它并肩战斗,但我又觉得这样做太过惊世骇俗——它毕竟是只猪啊;还有一个理由,我不敢对抗领导,我怀疑这才是问题之所在。总之,我在一边看着。猪兄的镇定使我佩服之极:它很冷静地躲在手枪和火枪的连线之内,任凭人喊狗咬,不离那条线。这样,拿手枪的人开火就会把拿火枪的打死,反之亦然;两头同时开火,两头都会被打死。至于它,因为目标小,多半没事。就这样连兜了几个圈子,它找到了一个空子,一头撞出去了;跑得潇洒之极。以后我在甘蔗地里还见过它一次,它长出了獠牙,还认识我,但已不容我走近了。这种冷淡使我痛心,但我也赞成它对心怀叵测的人保持距离。

  我已经四十岁了,除了这只猪,还没见过谁敢于如此无视对生活的设置。相反,我倒见过很多想要设置别人生活的人,还有对被设置的生活安之若素的人。因为这个原故,我一直怀念这只特立独行的猪。

真正的自由的思想

只有当你完全不在乎别人怎么评价你的时候才可能吧。